Right now I'm kind of nervous... I don't really know why. I guess I should be getting ready for work.
Matthew is getting out on the 5th! I can't wait. I'm so anxious. I hope all of this maddness will end when he gets out... but what if it gets worse?... It better not! At least I'll be happier. I think I really need a drink right now, but have nothing, and it would be a bad idea before work anyway.
Still having weird dreams and nightmares. I really can't explain how scary my nightmares are. I wonder why I want to sleep so much when my dreams always leave me feeling weird when I wake up. Sometimes I have dreams that I'm Alice from Alice in wonderland, but it's way different. Those usually aren't that freaky.
Well, must get ready. & smoke. I want this feeling to go away.